In/Out

In is work, wondering about the future, wanting to be out.

When I got up this morning I stood on my table and leant out of the top half of my window and felt the cold morning air. The sky was a warm peach colour above the tops of the houses, and faded majestically into cool blue with the tiniest hint of grey at the top. It was quiet and the sky was clear save the seagulls flying about. Everything was sharp.

Now I have just climbed onto the roof to mend a dripping gutter. I got up there and all was cold. A great view of the rooftops, a view not many see. As a contrast to inside, to wondering about the future, to thinking I need to do work or else I will be seen to be slacking, to people and to wondering if I’m wasting my time, it was total.

Outside is actual reality. A distinction, a cut off and seperate from—although still connected to—the inside. Both are real but the outside with its differing viewpoint and chill wind to sharpen you up snaps you out of the dull mindset of inside.

Why bother with worrying about the inside when the outside is real and it’s there and it’s nothing to do with the mindset of inside? Inside is created in your mind; outside is simple reality and that’s all there needs to be.